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i think that's just what i needed.
last night was fucking amazing... thank you to everyone who was there.. i love you all..
best thanksgiving ever :)
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So... maybe im "stuck" in paradise.. but what's worse than being here is being all by myself.. I went through this all last year, but it seems to be hitting me harder than before.
I miss: my phone ringing off the chain, my mom wondering where the hell i'm at, sophomore slut parking spot..sleeping at stephs for like 3 nights straight, laughing about anything and everything the boys did or said, all-nighters, singing at the top of our lungs in the corolla to any song in the book, laying around peoples houses in our bathing suits for hours, serious talks about our futures, skipping school like it was my job (pretty much was my job), lame ass high school parties, taking pictures at lame ass parties, and not remembering them weeks later.. going to the beach all day everyday with everyone and their mother there, sneaking out windows, AND sneaking people in :)... But most of all.. I miss you all.. so very much. I hope everyone is have an awesome time.
on a better note.. the nice sister i am.. i got tickets for the coldplay concert for my sisters 22nd birthday.. so i hope she enjoys that.
i need something new in my life..
i love you all...
good night..
p.s... i pierced my nose
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so yah, im really bored at work.. not expecting anyone to ready this... mom and dad left today for a week.. havent seen mikey in almost 2 weeks.. kinda weird without his annoying ass.. im so sick of working.. i dont know what to do though... i can't not work.. i need money..
on the other hand.. i've been talking to an old friend again lately.. i have mixed feelings on that.. i dont know what to do though..oh well..
the other day i read this quote and it really made me think.. "if you love something, let it go, and if it comes back to you, then it was meant to be.."...so yah.. that's that...
i need a vacation...
adios
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so it's 2:33 on my last day of summer a classes... i'm in the ARC building, and officially love it. it's a neat little place. Mo and i had class this am at 10, we had a test in that class... so that took like 45 minutes.. then we came STRAIGHT to the arc building and here we have been working on psychology since. actually we went to Tace Hell for 20 minutes... small break you know... so im finally finished with my take home test...(100 questions), 5 papers.. 2 had to be 3 pages long and the others only 1 (thank god).. now im just waiting for mo to hurry up.
last night was lots of fun, i went to see the sunset with SJ, and lindsey weaver.. but we got there like 3 minutes too late.. but the best part was the red tide... haha there was a jew fish that was like.. the size of a baby manatee!!!!!!! it was bigger than my dog.. and it's eyes were all bulged out.. *gag*.. it was great... then we went to lous and went in the hot tub.. which turned into the pool... and definetly played the game star.. for like 2 hours.. felt so nice to be a little kid again and forget about everything considereing i spent 6 hours studying earlier that day.. only to go home for 2 more hours....
i had a weird ass dream the other night, had some people interpret it.. pretty crazy..
this morning, i had the biggest urge to go to north carolina.. my parents are going there but i can't be there for too long with my brother.. mo and i are just gonna stay home.. but i'd like to get out of the state for a little while.... i need a vacay..
to all you college goers... good luck.. have fun. :) and be safe.....
im outta here i've gotta see if mo's done...
PEACE.
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that's right.. im goin to see avril!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how pumped am i?.. ohhhh yahhh baby :)
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[10 May 2005|11:29pm] |
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You Are From the Moon |
You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon.
You're in touch with your emotions and intuition.
You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory.
Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone).
A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many.
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hello friends:
havent updated in quite a while, and a lot of things have changed. im finally a free woman.. i dont have a job right now, and im loving it... but in like 2 weeks i'll be slaving away again.. spring break is like totally around the corner.. and SB = nicole snowboarding.. i've never done it and im so stoked. should be fun times (hopefully). for the amount of money i've spent.. it better be.
it's so crazy how in a matter of seconds something so good can be gone just like that. this year itself has taught me that....in some very brutal ways. i've also learned that in those situations, im very strong.. and i dont know where it came from. i guess i've learned to deal with it... that'll happen.
so lately i've been going out a lot.. and i really like it. nothin wrong with a little fun right?... mo came home for the weekend i think she was SHOCKED to see what im capable of.. hehe :) i heart you sister
i should be at the beach.. EXCEPT.. it's not nice out!!! what can ya do.. alright everyone have a fun and SAFE spring break.. enjoy the sun because i'll be freezing my ass of, and i'll probably return with a broken leg or something...
peace out mofos
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my mood says it all.... bet'cha didnt see that coming... have a good day.
<333 thanks
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[11 Jan 2005|11:40am] |
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hahahahahaha just wanted to say im posting from MCC... yahhhhh okay.. everyone have a good day :)
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so today was not so great.. i wish i had all the answers for everything.. like peoples actions, and just everything, i dont understand..
the beach was nice today, but what i found out just really hurt me.. i never thought one of my best friends would pull a stunt like that.. but i guess it just goes to show what true friends do and don't do.. and as for him.. i dont want to talk to him ever again.. the other night i watched the movie 50 first dates.. and btw it's so good, and the sound track is awesome.. but anywho.. i have to erase him from my life like Lucy did to henry.. i just have to forget everything, even the good times unfortunetly... i can't let my guard down...
the main thing i've been really thinking about thru all of this.. is why me? what have i ever done to anyone to deserve so much pain from one person specifically?.. nothing.. i really can't think of anything i've done.. i never have and never will cheat on someone.. i've never screwed anyone over and never will... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. whatever..
and i used to like the saying everything happens for a reason.. but ever since i started telling myself that.. bad shit has happened non-stop.. i dont get it.. i seriously have the worst luck.
im sorry for being so emo but i needed to vent...
and as for you mk... i dont hate you.. but why would you do that?...
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Float On by Modest Mouse |
"Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands
Good news will work its way to all them plans"
Laid back and real, people appreciated you for you are in 2004.
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im so sick and tired of this....... good night
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Last dream: I dont remember
Last car ride: um..just got out of megan's car
Last kiss:....i dont even remember?
Last good cry: the other day after work.. i was sooo upset!
Last Missing Library Book: um? i have no clue
Last movie seen: boondock saints
Last cuss word uttered: i dont remember? probably fuck
Last beverage drank: crystal light tea
Last TV show watched: the george lopez show
Last Food consumed: coooookies
Last Crush: hm.. can't tell ya
Last phone call: katie
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: american eagle flops
Last CD played: john mayer
Last Item Bought: UNDERWEAR!!!!!
Last downloaded: Nothing
Last annoyance: dogs
Last disappointment: rumors
Last soda drank: i don't really drink it
Last thing written: my name on a paper on my desk
Last key used: car key
Last words spoken: yahhh u should have.. (to katie about her dipping sauce for pizza)
Last trip to the bathroom: at home before i left for class
Last sleep: went to bed last night at like 10:30
Last IM: eh.. i don't remember
Last weird encounter: Sarah Santos and Dylan Bower at the mall
Last Store Shopped at: well i went to the mall instead of class tonight.. so victoria's secret
Last ice cream eaten: um.. a while. but i think i copied haybell with her vanilla nerds and white choc chips at shakepit
Last time amused: katie
Last time wanting to die: ....
Last time in love: dont know
Last time hugged: tooonight.. dylan
Last time scolded: pff no one yells at me
Last time resentful: ??
Last chair sat in: right now metal green chair..
Last lipstick used: chapstick
Last underwear worn: victoria's secret black v- string.. wooo woo
Last bra worn: victoria's secret black
Last shirt worn: pink vintage polo
Last class attended: ummm English maybe i skipped art tonight!! eeee
Last Final taken: havent taken any yet
Last time dancing: hahahah today when i was painting my room!
Last poster looked at: um?
Last show attended: none
Last webpage visited: livejournal.com
What sucks: Boys & of course school and my luck
What rocks: my friends and my family
What is red: the light on my radio
What is soft: my bed!
What is light: um.. not me.. obviously my lamp
What is good: the song on the radio
What is bad: the paint on my carpet
What is cold: my drink
What is wet: my cup
What is yellow: art book
What is hard: pff everything
What is loud: kate
What is nice: the beach
What is cruel: boys
What is quiet: my cell phone
What is cool: this song
What is hot: paul walker baby
What is annoying: my brother
What is lovely: i dont know
What is long: sundays at work
What is short: me
What is fat: malibu
What is big: my bed
What is blue: my capris
What is orange: my candle
What is bright: not my light
What is thin: my hair... but it's really not?
What is small: kobe baby
What is fun: being with friends and laughing
What is interesting: not my luck
What is boring: art class and work
What is stinky: um i couldnt tel lyou
What is good smelling: grrrr
What is sad: me :(
What is black: the keyboard
What is awesome: justin
What is hairy: ew
What is funny: my sister
What is pretty: everyone
What is fast: my car!
What is slow: monday - thursdays!
What is brown: my hair
What is dirty: my shoes
What is pink: my shirt
What is sexy: penis bones haha
What kind of a survey is this: an annoying one!
Which is better...
2 or 4 door vehicle: 4
Blanket or stuffed animal: both
Dumper or Dumpee: neither are fun
Disney or Warner Brothers: Disney!
Pen or Pencil: pen
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Left or Right side of the bed: left?
Backstreet Boys or N Sync: umm nsync
Boxers OR Briefs: Boxers..
Romantic, Comedy, or Horror: depends on the mood
McDonald's or Burger King: eh wendys
Perfect love or the perfect friend: well i'll never have a perfect love.. so a perfect friend
Day or Night: DayBeach-NightParty
Cats or dogs: dogs
Ocean or pool: mother ocean
Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese Dorritos: depends on my mood
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: mud
Milk/dark/white chocolate: milk
Biking or blading: biking
Bunk bed or waterbed: Water
Motor boat or sailboat: motor boat
What's My Favorite...
Number: 2
How come: it takes two to tango baby!
Favorite Movie: um.. i can't pick just one
Favorite quote from a movie: ??
Favorite Holiday: um thanksgiving
Band: tom petty, john cougar mellancamp, there are just too many to think about
Favorite Food: seafood
TV show: george lopez show
Least favorite subject: right now art appreciation
Alcoholic Drink: madras, cranberry and vodka
Sesame Street Character: dont remember
Soft Drink: diet coke
Ice Cream: hockey
Sport to do: soccer
Song: jack and diane
Radio Station: 933,1007,1065
Type of music: everything-country, rap, Rock
Shampoo/Conditioner: um... aveda stuff
Actor: hugh grant
Actress: cameron diaz
Music video: oh geeze i dont know
Candy: um... nerds?
Words [u always use]: whatever
Phrases [u always use]: everything happens for a reason.. (is that a phrase?)
Subject: english
Book: ??
CD: avril and ash
Gadget: cellular and computer
Do Tell...
Your three best qualities: um how about you tell me?
Three worst qualities: i over annalyze EVERYTHING, emotional basketcase, low self esteem
Three things you are often complimented for: ... i dont like these questions
A compliment you got that made you blush: oh i dont know...
What makes you happy: my mom and sister
Upsets you: haha just about everything
Yes or No...
You keep a diary: lj..
You like to cook: i'd like to learn how to
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yea
You fold your underwear: kinda?
You talk in your sleep: i would imagine so
You set your alarm clock a few minutes ahead: yah
You believe in love: yes
Last...
Movie you rented : um..dont remember
last movie bought: ...
Song you listened to : ryan... true..:(
Song that was stuck in your head: that one
Do...
You wish you could live somewhere else : yes i do
You think about suicide: no
Others find you attractive : tell me
You want more piercings : yes
You want more tattoos : just one more
You drink : occasionally
You do drugs : ----
You smoke : ---
You like cleaning : i clean when i think...
You like roller coasters: im getting used to them
You write in cursive or print: half and half
You carry a donor card : for blood?
You have a crush on somebody : .......ya
Have You...
Ever cried over a boy/girl : me?.. haha
Ever lied to someone : yes
Ever been in a fist fight : with my brother
Ever been arrested : nope
What
Shampoo do you use : re-hydrate
What kind of lotion you use : some mango peach ish
Are you scared of : LIZARDS... and being alone
Number
Of times you have been in love : ??
Of times you have had your heart broken : ? dont know
Of hearts you have broken : i don't know ??
Of guys/girls you have kissed : guys ... 24.. girls.. ZERO
Of people you consider your enemies : um.. there are a few
Of CDs' that you own : no clue
Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper : oh ya know...
With the Opposite Sex...
What do you notice first : eyes.. smile, then hands
Last person you slow danced with : haha hell if i know
You...
Name: Nicole
Nickname(s): Niki, Cole
Age: 18
DOB: 12-15-85.... 2 weeks from today!!
POB: Jamesberg New Jersey baby
Location: same btown represent
Sex: girl
Sexual preference: the boys
Daily...
First thing you do in morning: stretch
Do you shower: yes
How much makeup do you really wear: chapstick...
How do you usually wear your hair: however it dries
At school: however it dries
At home: messy
This or That...
Lipgloss vs lipstick: gloss
Coke vs pepsi: eeh
Britney vs Christina: christina
Justin vs nick: Justin
50 cent vs ja rule: ja
Paper or plastic: plastic
Latex vs rubber: whatever
Black vs white: black
Rock vs rap: both
Pop vs hip hop: both
Real world vs road rules: real world
Aol vs aim: Aim= less drama
Friends...
Funniest: turn
Prettiest: everyone
Coolest: all
Craziest: hmnm.. turn gets pretty nutty
Most memories with: steph and sob
Longest friendship: megan
Blondest: probably me
Best: steph and sob
Annoying: sob when shes drunk.. haha
Hottest: everyone
Smartest: everyone
Personal...
Base you been to: ive yet to hit a homer
Last relationship: got screwed over yet again
First relationship: ryan hogan
Ever been kissed: yes
Last person you kissed: ...ee i dont know
First real love: ....
First heartbreak: bobby
Dating status: alone of course
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Nobody's Home- Avril |
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I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
so yea.. i would post an avril song.. afterall she is my girl....
i love you all
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so i officially think crowders owns me..... seriously..
today was good there though.. psycho boy wasnt there to annoy me.. therefore i was happy :).. i got to work in the back at the end of the night which is always fun.. (riiiight).. there are only a few things keeping me sane at that place.. let me tell ya.......
anyone know when the weather is supposed to get cold? hello.. soon i hope..
these past few posts have been outrageously ridiculous and stupid..
morgan kate- have fun at the strip club... YOU C.F.. (let me know if u remember that).. also im so looking forward to the new baby blend.. that will be arriving on my birthday..
school sucks ass.. today we had to register.. and there was some hold on my account.. until 2099.. hello i'll be dead.. therefore- screw you MCC..
all of you tallyho goers.. have fun and be good.. i'll be at crowders.. with pyscho cross eyed lover boy..
i have to go start my paper.. that is due in say about hmm.. nine hours.. hooray for Ms. Tyson
<3 <3
guten nacht (sorry this was pointless)
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today is totally one month from my 19th birthday!!!!!!! :) <3 <3
just thought i'd give ya'll the heads up .. hehe
i love you all...
and ben jelen
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[30 Oct 2004|12:16am] |
holla.. so i just got home from hanging out with Sasha, Trav, Billy, Danny, Jordan, Hunter, and Drew and another kid named andrew.. and taylor was there at the end.. ( yes i found it necessary to name everyone).. and i had a lot of fun. I laughed a lot.. which was nice.. felt good. Thank you guys for that :)
So... lately?.. whats going on.. hmm.. I work like 30 hours a week.. AND go to school, and maintain sKrait A's (and what?).. yeah get off me. but i have NO social life. it blows.. big time... but i've become friends with this girl Pam who's in one of my classes.. and shes awesome. she invited me to a halloween party tomorrow night.. and i guess im going.. but im a little scared.. guess we'll have to see how it goes...
I really want to do something different with my hair.. but i just dont know what..
holy mackeral.. i get paid thursday.. and i am sooooooo excited.. i am soooooooooo treating myself to whatever i want.. and whatever i can of course afford.... i have lots to say. but im too tired.. i have to work all day tomorrow.. bummer.. good news.. there is a cute boy there.. but i can't figure him out.. his name it elliot.. he looks kind of scene ish i guess?..
but okay.. good night.. just thought i'd post.. thanks again to sasha baby, and friends.
love me
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THE HOUSE IS OPEN.. dude its so nice out.. i can't believe it! so tonight is the homecoming game.. wonder who's gonna win.. im voting for nat nat.. haha jk.. "im outta highschool".. :) im in a pretty good mood.. michael ennis gave me flowers last night which was real sweet.. and.... my room really makes me happy which is weird.. but who cares.. i like it.. got a hair cut yesterday.. it was supposed to be a trim, since im "growing" it out.. and she butchered it.. oh well.. it'll grow.. I had to put duct tape all around my window today so lizards couldnt get in since we opened the house up.. man im so anal about certain things..
what would you do with one million dollars??
LITTLE MISS SOB.. here is ur shoutout!! woo woo.. i <3 you and im STOKED you're coming to btown today..
sasha.. when are you coming to btown?.. let me know..
no news on the cute boy... im getting better at being patient.. i really am.. but for now.. im gonna go clean?.. or something.. pff.. clean.. who does that.. alright (I like spacing everything out.. incase you couldnt tell...)
LEAVE ME SOME LOVIN ;)
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- goood afternoon fellow ljer's.. this post will probably be pointless just like all the others... but i feel the need to say something.. (what i dont know) so i'll just type... Kobe is now living with us, those of you who don't know it's my sisters daughter (black lab) and im about to give her the boot.. she chewed up one of my mocasins the other day.. shes real funny though, brendan thinks its funny to make her chase the flashlight.. and it is really humorous.. but i feel like it's gonna make her crazy..
- anywho:... I left a note on the cute boys car.. and he called.. it'll have been a week ago tomorrow.. he said he'd call back to hang out within the next week.. so we'll see i guess.. he's not gonna call though.. i just have a feeling.. and lately i've been right with my "feelings".. whatever.. im getting better at accepting that i have to be patient.. i really am.. and i've made my luck into a joke.. b/c thats just what it is..
- someone very wise told me something today that made me think.... something good will happen.. when you need it the most.. * i need it the most right now.. or so i think.. who knows.. we'll see i guess.....
- im doing really good in school i think.. on my first english paper i got an A - and then my first math test i got a 97... so pysched.
- i wish there was a way to get people to comment on my lj.. travis seems to own that though.. no luck competeing.. haha jk..
- is there such thing as over sleeping?.. b/c i got 11 hours last night.. and im FIGHTING to keep my eyes open right now.. im out.. one love..
<3<3<3<3<\3<3<3<3<3
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